5th shot of T - feb 13!

excited!

my voice is sounding better than ever!

it was the alst time that i had to inject in a nurse's presence. i got the PRESCRIPTION (not getting them mailed, satan knows where i heard that from) for the syringes, needles, and even a fancy BIOHAZARD bucket that has to be disposed of specially (the dirty needles go in there)

i'm so excited! well, i don't feel it. i'm still recovering from an ecstasy binge and feel pretty mellow/ya-might-say-depressive, but since my temperament has always been melancholic/nervous, it's normal to me.

sad and nervous. story of my life, hah.

okay, this is going to be posted in my regular journal, let me get to specifics --

-i swear that i notice more peach fuzz around my lips, where the mustache would be growing eventually

-my voice is deepening, the most prominent difference since i started injecting testosterone

-my sex drive is the same, still horny 24-7, buti have more confidence to approach people that i find attractive/interesting/want to bone/be boned by

-i can do push-ups more easily, but arm muscles aren't visibly much bigger

-photos must begin! even if i think i look dorky or horrid in them, i've got to post them. i want to document this.

that's all for now boys and ghouls XD

4th shot of T - jan. 30 '06

i ddin't write an entry perviously for that date: yes, on january 30th i took my 4th shot of testosterone.

i did it myself! i self-injected, and it was fecking easy if ya ask me.

it was much less of a pain/nerve-wracking compared to when the nurse did it. i like doing things myself.

the next appointment, i'm going to self-inject once more in the presence of a nurse, but this time she isn't going to give me instructions, just watch me. and after that, i will have the authorization to get needles + supplies mailed to me. now i won't have to pay for doctor's visits, hurrah!

i posted a voice entry today. my voice has dropped again.

i notice more muscle in my legs, i climb stairs like a maniac, non stop. it might also be since i live on a 5th floor walk-up, the subway stop by my house is 3 flights of stairs, and i continually walk up and down stairs while at work.

i have a bit of a belly, i need to work that off. testosterone can make me gain muscle or fat, it's my choice. i choose muscle, so exercise and discipline must take effect -- immediately.

i notice waves of acne on the sides of my forehead, though this started before i took testosterone. the difference is the quantity of acne; the pistules are tiny and the same size as i would've gotten previously. now i wash my face every night to combat this. i had exceptionally clear skin most of my life, so this must be some effect of T.

last week i noticed a few random zits on my back, which are gone now. before T, i never got zits on my back, as far as i can remember.

what else -- my clitdick is prominent as ever, it is much more pleasurable to wank off now.