3rd shot of testosterone

29th day of having testosterone flowing through this body.

just about 4 weeks since my first shot.

3 oh, it's a magic number.

i apologize for not updating sooner.

i apologize to myself and for the future. i want a concise, accurate, and timely recording of my transition. this is only possible if i dedicate myself to posting regularly.

so far, the main changes i notice are:

-balanced mood, more motivation/positive energy

-more likely to verbalize when i am angry or frustrated, i.e. instances on the subway where i am quick to state what i feel: 'okay people, i need to get up the stairs too' (that was when there's a flood of people going down on all sides so that people going up are blocked. so rude. people tend to move once i vocalize the problem, heh)

-clit feels more rigid, like a long bone, feels more present than before. my cunt still gets dripping wet (this is a regular occurence for me, whenever i'm horny, which is often), so that hasn't changed.

-i am more confident to approach guys that i think are hot, or make eye contact. nothing has changed with my attraction to females, except i feel more relaxed around them. not as on edge and nervous as before.

-my voice dropped after the second shot, as you can hear on the phone posts. it happened simultaneously as i had a cold, so that was amusing. to this day i don't know if my throat was hoarse/hurt because of the vocal chords changing, the cold, or both! it felt so natural. like something i've waited for to happen. there was a definite soreness in the throat, even after the cold was long gone. it must've been vocal chords tightening. an odd feeling.

-i have some zits outlining my forehead/sides of face, i don't know whether this is from wearing a hat (which i rarely wash)) at work, or if i need to wash my face more at night, hah. but i don't think it's the big T's fault. i had them before i started. must work on personal hygiene, and stop rubbing face.

well, i'm long overdue for photos of myself. i feel so out-fo-place, like a science experiment, a stranger to myself when taking self-portraits with the digital camera. i always feel like that unless i get into the vain habit of taking photos constantly, so that i'm comfortable and the anxiety is gone and the photos come out alright.

so yes, i normally feel kind of like a science experiment, before this transition genderscrewing business.

i don't allow comments because, well, i don't need them. this is for educational purposes, somewhat political (i have the freedom and right to do this and i hope someday this is accepted more widely, and not stigmatized or frowned upon as a huge crisis. it is only a crisis in a society which makes the options and overall quality of life difficult and unappealing for transgendered/transsexual persons. if we had our rights and respect and acceptance in society, i would hope that the transitioning process would be seen in a much more positive way, rather than how many view it as some drastic or extreme choice.)

if anyone wants to contact me, feel free, my e-mail address is posted on the profile page.

photos in the next post, along with another voice update!